Month: May 2004

  • A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius – by Dave Eggers

    Anybody else read this? I’m about 4/5 through, so I figure I can review it now. At times, I almost got exasperated enough to put it down for good, but the premise kept me going. It’s a memoir and first effort by a young author whose parents both die within a short period of time from cancer, leaving himself, an older sister, and a younger brother to fend for themselves. They relocate to the West Coast, the two older children essentially parenting the youngest. Nobody talks about IQ tests anymore, but you can tell a very, very bright person by the way they string words together, whether they are sane or psychopathic. This is a very bright person. Here’s a paragraph chosen at random from dead center in the book: Okay, you want to hear a sad story? Last night I was home, listening to an album. A favorite song came on, and I was singing aloud, loud enough for it to matter but not loud enough to wake up Toph, sleeping in his bedroom adjacent, and as I was singing, I was moving my hands through my hair in a weird obsessive sort of way, like a slow-motion shampooing maneuver–it’s something I do with my hair when I am alone and enjoying music–and as I was singing and doing the slo-mo hands-in-the-hair maneuver, I messed up the words to the song I was singing, and though it was two fifty-nine in the morning, I became quickly, deeply embarrassed about my singing gaffe, convinced that there was a very good chance that someone could see me–through the window, across the dark, across the street. I was sure, saw vividly that someone–or more likely a someone and his friends–over there was having a hearty laugh at my expense. See what I mean? When you’ve read their story you just hope for the best for this trio, this family, this author, and you know even if they end up in the gutter they will be entertaining and very, very bright.
    Deep Thought: When I was seven, I told my friend Timmy Barker I would give him a million dollars if he would eat an earthworm. He ate the worm, but I never gave him the million dollars. As of last week, all I had given him was $9,840.
    Today I am grateful for: Word processing

  • Dawn in My Back Yard


    I was going to try and catch a shot of the duck pair who come and eat the cracked corn my neighbor throws out on the street directly in front of her door so she can watch them eat.  I fear for the day one of my felines is going to make lunch of them.  Anyway, they weren’t there, but I do think I saw the tail of a big raccoon making its way past these irises in my back yard in the early dark predawn light.  Eat your heart out country dwellers.  In the meantime, I ran across this quiz:
    1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD IT BE?
    I love my little house where I already live except for I wish it was a bit more private, but if I were going to have a second house it would be at the ocean.  I would love to be able to get away there for days at a time any time of year with whomever I please and just listen to the sound of the waves and feel the sand under my feet.
    2. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?
    Wow, I really have to think about that.  I buy most of my clothes secondhand, almost always cotton so I can wash and hang with no ironing, plus they’re soft and comfy.  Comfy is key.  I wear slacks and shirts a lot and like the colors black, brown, purple, and blue.
    3. IF YOU COULD HAVE CHOSEN YOUR NAME WHAT WOULD IT HAVE BEEN?
    Oh something simple and artsy like Lake.  I’ve never liked my name (Andrea).  Nobody pronounces it right and they always ask.  Plus my parents were expecting an Andrew.
    4. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE?
    In my back yard on a perfect day sitting in the sun.
    5. WHERE IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE?
    In traffic.
    6. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING?
    4 am.  Born on a farm.  Always been a early riser except in my hellraising days.
    7. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE?
    Refrigerator and microwave.  Don’t have that many.  Dishwasher when it works.
    8. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY?
    Racisim, gossip, cruelty, dishonesty.
    9. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE.
    Lead guitar.  I do play the piano and must get one before too much more time goes by.
    10. FAVORITE COLORS?
    See above..
    11. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTER LIFE?
    Not really, though I don’t rule anything out.
    12. FAVORITE CHILDREN’S BOOK?
    Oz books.  Read them all.  Still have some.
    13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
    Oh, spring I guess.  On days when it’s not too hot and the light is just right and the ground hasn’t dried out yet.
    14. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
    Turning people into peacelovers just by pointing at them or thinking about them.
    15. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT AND WHERE?
    No tattoos.  It’s a miracle considering my youth, but for some reason tattoos weren’t quite in yet then.
    16. DO YOU JUGGLE?
    Nope. Neither can most people I guess.
    17. THE ONE PERSON FROM THE PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO.
    Both my parents and all 4 grandparents.
    18. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
    Any day I don’t come to work.
    19. WHAT IS IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR?
    A fold up chair for baseball games and such, a first aid kit, a jack, not much yet because the car is fairly new.
    20. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER?
    Never ate sushi yet.  Never eat hamburger any more.
    21. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON?
    Not one for cartoons but I just checked out South Park from the library.  Is that the name of it?
    25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MEAL?
    Something with fish and fresh vegetables in a restaurant.


    (I can’t believe I forgot the Deep Thought till 8:45 pm.)
    Deep Thought: One thing a computer can do that most humans can’t is be sealed up in a cardboard box and sit in a warehouse.
    Today I am grateful for: Paper with lines










  • Serenity

    As I look
    Beyond the ripples of my reflections
    To examine my inner self;
    The ripples begin to fade . . .
    As the reflection lays beside me
    Grasping my hand,
    The inner warmth shields me
    And the vision of my reflection appears
    I see you. My Friend.

    Deep Thought:  If God dwells inside us, like some people say, I sure hope He likes enchiladas, because that’s what He’s getting!
    Today I am grateful for:  Red ink pens

  • Adolescents in Trouble Film Genre

    I’ve been meaning to mention these two films. This is not my favorite genre, one that I go looking for, but when all else fails…In this case, I was very pleasantly surprised by both these stories. Elephant was shot here in Portland where I live and also features a very brief shot of my grandchildren’s beloved dog Boomer, who happened to be jumping around in the park nearby shooting of the film and was noticed. He earned a handy $1200 for his moments of fame. The film itself is gorgeous. Shot in that low-budget handheld camera kind of way, it documents the development of a school shooting by following several students through the day so that you see the drama unfold from different angles and points of view. My theory of why this film has received so little attention in the U.S. but won the Cannes Film Festival Grand Prize is that we have become numbed to this sort of theme here (you’ve seen one you’ve seen them all), but in France an art film about American violence is rewarded. The film doesn’t make statements or deliver any deliberate social messages, but it becomes clear how typical it is in high school corridors for individual students to become outcasts, how easily they can slip over the line from “different” to “unacceptable.” And how tragic. Manic was a Sundance entry and maybe went straight to video. I don’t remember ever seeing it playing in theaters but it’s still on the video store shelves. The setting is a psych ward full of disturbed teenagers. The drama is intense as their stories unfold and they interact with each other and their counselor, played by Don Cheadle, an excellent character actor. Again, the young actors are mostly unknowns, but the acting itself is top notch. The film is more close to the gut, less detached, then Elephant. It pulls you right in. Both are very much worth viewing.
    Deep Thought: When I found the wallet in the road, I started wondering about the guy who owned it. Who was he? Was it William Gregory of 2407 Eastwood Lane, like the driver’s license said, or was it someone else? And what was he going to spend the $220 on? About a week later, I started wondering again about the wallet guy. What was he like? And where was he going to spend his five dollars?
    Today I am grateful for: The helping professions

  • You Just Can’t Get Good Help These Days


    No matter how hard I try to impress on my roommates to do the housecleaning and lawn mowing while I’m at work, this is what I get.  (Well, unless you count eating grass and throwing it up on the living room floor.)
    Deep Thought: The first time I ever saw the ocean, I was real disappointed. “That’s the ocean?!” I said. No, said Mom and Dad, that’s just the parking lot. When we pulled into the lot, I was real disappointed in it. It was hard to find a spot, and the spaces seemed way too narrow, in my book. The ocean was okay, I guess, but I still can’t get over how disappointing that parking lot was.
    Today I am grateful for: Spatulas

  • THINGS THAT REFRESH MY SOUL

    Laughter

    L is usually for Love, isn’t it? But love is almost a given for soul refreshment. Laughter isn’t so obvious. Count me in that group of us who carry a big bunch of sadness around with them through life from the very beginning. I’ve given up trying to figure out why. But I’ve become increasingly aware of the power of laughter to fight the sadness back. I’d call myself a high-functioning sad person who keeps laughter in a toolbox of vampire-slaying tricks. Because that’s what sadness is – it drains your heart dry. I want a moist, wet, drowning-in-laughter heart. So I post a Deep Thought in my blog each day because they crack me up. I make a point of keeping company with negative people to a minimum. I get my news from The Daily Show. I hang out with children and pets. I pray for more funny friends. Who says you have to stand in the corner all your life with a bag over your head? Laughter is like vitamins – take them or get sick. It’s a choice.
    Deep Thought: When you first start wearing a turban, probably the most common mistake is wrapping it too tight. You have to allow the head to breathe.
    Today I am grateful for: Toolboxes

  • Sharing this poem by greybellycloud this morning. It’s the best I’ve seen on the war so far.


    50 Miles from Baghdad

    Sandstorms swirl about you, making you sick
    for the banjo rain, sick for the barefoot girl
    running on pastured hills as if life were a joke.

    Sick of this exercise in empire, sick of these patriot
    games, you long for the days of lemonade,
    a broad front porch, and swinging in the late afternoon.

    “My country, right or wrong” is a madman’s creed, written
    in the blood of a thousand fathers who will never see
    the newborn child or wipe the tears of a hometown bride.
    ________________________
    Deep Thought: Every summer we’d get our baskets and buckets and go out into the hills and woods, looking for wild strawberries, blueberries, and blackberries. We never found any, though.
    Today I am grateful for: Home

  • Deep Thought: I bet what happened was, they discovered fire and invented the wheel on the same day. Then, that night, they burned the wheel.
    Today I am grateful for: May

  • History of the Buck
    Speaks for itself, doesn’t it?

    Deep Thought: As I stood there looking at the beautiful waterfall, I wondered how many other people had stood there, and how many had candy corn “teeth” sticking out between their lips like I did.
    Today I am grateful for: Not being on food stamps




  • the sun
    is
    the color of

    joy falling stars mown
    hay marigolds sea-sand
    cat’s eyes childbirth
    preludes afterthoughts
    christmas tree balls
    apricots morning field
    corn silence and grief

    is
    the color of
    the sun


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    Deep Thought: If you’re ever giving a speech, when you start out, act nervous and get mixed up a little bit. Then, as you go along, get better and better. Then, at the end, give off a white, glowing light and have rays shoot out of you.
    Today I am grateful for: Sandals