September 15, 2003
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(Chapter One – cont. – starts 9/8)
Their letters were frequent at this time. Down to the wire they parried for power. Only days before they wed my father wrote: “Do not misunderstand me. I am simply telling you that I consider your letter disgraceful and [am] asking for apology. I love you now as much or more than ever and am anxious to be married. But if you feel that I am wrong I shall know that your love has failed and that with you it is yourself first instead of me. Knowing that, I could not wish to go on.” Thus did my mother choose a husband as chauvinistic as her father and commit herself to a life of resentment and a passion for the feminist movement when it finally arrived years too late to counter all her stored anguish. When my parents were alive I thought my father was the parent I adored and my mother the parent I endured. Since they have been gone, I find it is my mother’s voice which speaks to me daily and her spirit which I yearn to gather round me as I take my place in old age. (to be continued)
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Deep Thought: I wish I would have a real tragic love affair and get so bummed out that I’d just quit my job and become a bum for a few years, because I was thinking about doing that anyway.
Comments (5)
“adored…and endured.” Fascinating! I think I’ll be wondering about those, in my own life, for some days to come. Thank you!
Hmm… with my parents it was the other way around… I loved them both, but I adored my father, and endured my mother. Trying to find the balance still. Fortunately for me, I still have them both.
I didn’t change the order till they were both gone actually. You never know. And don’t get me wrong. I still adored my father, just came to value my mother more than I ever dreamed possible.
Can you can love and endure at the same time, do you think? adored — endured. yes. At different stages of life it flips and flops back and forth too…nothing’s simple, is it? Then there is the adoring and enduring they go through for our sakes.
thank you for your insights. They give me so much to think on.
Wow. That’s all I can say to share my emotion at this blog. Infinite Blessings